IT'S 2012 PEOPLE!

     So it has been 3 months I didn’t post anything here, I was kind of really busy lately.

I was one of the PMR candidates this year and I’m more into focusing on my study than being on the internet. I decided that I want to study earlier for the PMR exam because I really want to score 7As and get that dslr camera my dad promise me to buy if I score 7As. Dslr camera as a gift was like a dream come true ‘cause I really love taking picture. More like a photography. Wanna know why? It’s because for me the picture that I capture was more like a memories that can’t be erased and you can always look back at the picture and even if the people you’ve known change, the picture of them will never change.

     So yeah, I get pretty excited knowing that I’ll turn fifteen next Friday. My birthday was on January 20, I wish greyson chance will follow me on twitter on my birthday, I know it’s impossible for him to notice me ‘cause he have like 1,434,422 million followers! But it worth a try ‘cause sometimes wishes do come true :)

     Btw, I wanna thanks Mr. George Gumpah for his very understanding teaching. I really understand what he teach and I found out that maths is now one of my favorite subject because of him! :D

     I was very happy with our class new looks, we paint our class with green color and we also decorate it and now it was like a paradise and it was a very comfy place to study! Now this is what I call a CLASS. We also get the teacher we like teaching us! I felt extremely happy, and when I say I’m happy, I mean HAPPY :) thanks to our very caring and dedicated teacher Mdm. Cathrine :)

     so yeah, I guess that’s all. Wish we good luck on my study! ^^ thanks.

Copycats pissed me off -_-

It has been a while since I didn’t post anything here, maybe because it was holiday and I was enjoying life and didn’t have time for the internet. So yeah, I really did enjoying my life right now. Visiting my grandma at botung(my village) was always a good idea. I always felt happy when I was there because I have so many friends to play and hanging with. So I never get bored.

What I want to share with you today is “I HATE COPYCATS!” yeah, copycats are attacking me now it piss me off. Could you just be you? There is no harm in showing the real you and I was wondering, what is the reason you copy other people? to be famous? I don’t think so. Please, stop copying other people, you can be the best with who you really are, you just need to TRUST yourself. 

There’s this girl who like to copy everything I do and it really pissed me off -__- seriously, i don't need a friend like you.

I can't wait

I can’t wait for tomorrow ‘cause tomorrow is the last day of school, then we have a one month and a half holiday. Yayy! I’m so excited! But, I felt like I don’t want to go to school tomorrow ‘because I fall sick just now, oh how I hate tonsils disease. -__- my sputum hurt a lot! But I have to go to school tomorrow because it is the last day of school and anyway there’s a talent show that going to be held  and I really want to hear my friends singing. There’s also a funfair that going to be held and I really want to go to the haunted house and meet the ghost.

I can’t wait for Christmas too. I have decided that I will celebrate Christmas at botung (my mom village) this year and we’ll have a visit before Christmas at beluran (my dad village). So it’s fair that I go to both of my village. My cousins from Melaka are going to celebrate Christmas at botung too and I can’t wait to see his face ‘cause it has been a year since the last time I saw him, his face must be very different now.

After the holiday I’m going to be in form 3 and I’m going to face the PMR soon because I’m one of the PMR candidates. I’m so scared and afraid I didn’t get a good result. I already promise my dad just now that I’ll get 7A for him and if I do he’ll buy a dslr camera for me. Yayy! He knows I love photography and now my mission is to study hard, do a lot of exercise and use my time well. I hope I could get 7A because I desperately want the dslr camera. Dear god, please help me J

I Have to study HARD. 

Down :(

I hate when I was on the internet and it was raining, because the rain will make the internet connection become slow and slow and slow. More like a snail -_-

 So, we already got the science paper and I felt sad, extremely sad because I got a ‘B’ in science test, it was supposed to be ‘A’. I felt bad about my science result and I’m afraid I didn’t get 5A because I already promised my dad that I’ll get 5A for him and he’ll give me money $$ before that I was confident that I’ll get 5A if I study hard, so I stay up late every night and struggle. I study all the chapter and do exercise because I really want to get at least 5A. But now I felt down, really down because I got ‘B’ in science test and maybe a ‘C’ in history test because my history teacher said that no one get an A or B in the history test. Oh my god, I never get C in history test before, I have always got an A. :’(

I felt sad and afraid in the same time because all the subject that I hope I will get an A didn’t goes like what it’d planned. There are still 5 subjects left and I hope and really hope that I can score A in KH, BM, BI, Maths and GEO. Please let it be. There’s so many bad news I get this week and please give me some good news. I felt like I lost my confident already.

Frustrated

Finally, the final exam is now over. Relieved. Now, I can read as many story books as I like, online 24-hours, watch movies and watch TV’s as longer as I like without worrying about my studies. The school holiday is coming soon and I can’t wait ‘till it’s Christmas. Talking about Christmas, I don’t know where I’m going to celebrate Christmas this year, whether at beluran or at botung.  If you ask me, I want to celebrate in both of the place but the problem is, the distance between both of my village is so far away. This is the disadvantage of having a far village; I can’t celebrate Christmas in both of my village in one day. Oh how I hate it.

So, the reason I want to celebrate Christmas at botung is because all of my mom’s family members are going to celebrate Christmas and family’s day at there and there is also fun games and also prize for the winner too. Apart from that, there’s also going to have ‘aramaii tii’ too, of course. LOL. How exciting.

AND the reason I want to celebrate Christmas at beluran is because my grandma said that we’ll be making cupcakes and cookies for Christmas, I LOVE BAKING, especially cupcakes! And my aunt also planned to bring me, my siblings and my grandma to celebrate Christmas at my other aunt house at Sarawak. So there’s gonna be a lot of travelling and shopping of course. Yayy! BUT, she didn’t sure yet if she gets the ticket, if she didn’t get it, we have to cancel the plan. Ugh -.-

Oh god, I felt extremely frustrated about where I’m going to celebrate Christmas this year and I wish I could celebrate Christmas in both of my village. I know, it is an idle wish. If only I could celebrate Christmas in both places I’ll be the happiest girl in the world.

FAN-SIGN for my grandma

I made this fan-sign special for my grandma. :)

I love my grandma. I'm talking about my mother's mother. In the twenty one years I have known her, she has been the same great lady she always was. she was 61 years old now, but to me, she's always young, the one who's hardworking, cheerful and funny. There's a reason why I made this fan-sign for her. I made this fan-sign for her is because both of us are really close and both of us has the same history of life. my grandma lost her mom when she was only a little girl. I lost my mom(my grandma daughter)too when I was just 8 years old. my grandma father then marriage with another woman and the woman became my grandma stepmother. I have a stepmother too. 

My grandma is very lovely, caring and sweet. she always brings me and my sibling to the church every sunday. she always buy me everything I want even if I told her not to. whenever I felt sad, she knew just the way how to make me smile again. everytime I came to visit her, there's always my favorite food that were provided. my grandma knew me very well. she treat me like her daughter and she was like my mom. she knew me more than my own father knew me. 

grandma, only god know how big my love for you is. 

I thanked you forever for you caring. <3

Worried :/

I was facing the final exam now, and its still haven't finish - still got plenty to go. I've been a little bit stressful lately, because of my worried about the exam that I'm facing now. I'm afraid I can't score a good mark because my wish is to see the smile on my parents face and make them felt proud of me. Okey, I admitted, I never felt so worried like this before and yes, I cried a lot this week because of the stressful things that had been going on and because of the surrounding. every time I study, there's always a noisy noise and people interrupting me and because of that, I can't completely focus on what I'm reading, I felt like I read a blank book because nothing that I read were sent into my brain. It was like the nerve impulses are sent along the nerves to my brain but my brain cannot interprets the message. I felt like my nerve system is not working, then I cried. (I'm such a baby) I throw things and scream like crazy, well this is how I release the stress in my head 'cause I can't no longer hold the stress, it's too heavy to carry on. I text my friend telling them about my problem but none of them understand. I cried even more, then finally, I prayed. I asked for god help to help me to be strong to face all this things that was bothering me.

I felt worried about my future suddenly - and I promise to myself that I'll study hard until I can reach my dreams, to be a history teacher. :) this was a big promise I made to myself and I believe, with god help, I can reach my dreams 'cause nothing is impossible. I pray. I pray a lot. It helps me feel peace when things get really crazy, and I focus on what I'm doing, and what is most important.

End of holidays

     Today was the last day of our school holidays, that’s mean we have to go to school tomorrow.  I love going to school after a holiday but this time I felt different. I felt like I don’t want the holiday to end, I don’t know why, maybe because I have so much fun during the holiday. This is not always happened, usually I’ll have a boring holiday with nothing to do except being on the internet all day. But this time it was different because I spent most of my holiday at my village. I also spent my time with my grandparents, uncles, aunties and my cousins. I was far away from the internet and also far away from boredom. I’m glad that I had spent my holiday at my village. This was a good news. But when there’s a good new there’s always a bad news too, right? Okay, the bad news is I didn’t study for the whole holiday. I did bring along my textbook and exercise book but I didn’t touch them, they just sat there collecting dust. I spent most of the holiday reading story book and novels that I borrowed at the library. So this is my habit, my bad habit, I love borrowing books when the exam is around the corner and I don’t have time studying because I was too busy reading story books. HAHA. I get easily distract by a story book when I’m studying. I can finish a thick story book a day, I never get bored. My eyes were automatically stuck to the book I’m reading but when I’m reading a textbook I always felt sleepy and get bored. I don’t know why.

     So I guess I’ll have to say goodbye to story books and novels this time and say hello to textbook. I’ll practice myself to get used to reading a textbook.

Random day and Random post

      My grandma and I woke up early today because we’re going to the tamu to buy some stuff. After we get ready, we walked along the street to catch the bus. It was not long when Mrs. Jovita saw us and gave us a ride because she’s going to the tamu too.  It was nice of her to give us a ride. When we arrived, we walked around the tamu and find stuff that we need. I saw this nice shoe and deep down in my heart I really want that shoes but I didn’t have money. My grandma saw me looking at the shoes and she asked me I want it or not so I say yes and she buy me the shoes. Oh grandma, I love you! Then I thanked her, of course. After we buy the stuff that we need, we went to the food stall and have lunch. When we were on our way out of the stall suddenly this old man jump in front of me and dance like crazy, I look at my grandma and she laugh. I didn’t laugh though because I don’t think it’s that funny I just gave the old man a smile and walked away with my grandma. When the old man was out of our sight I put a question mark on my face and asked my grandma “err... Grandma, do you know who’s that old man? Is he your friend?”  She looks at me and laughs “no.”  She answered simply. After that, we go to catch the bus and soon after we’re home.

     I drink two glasses of water and go to sleep. When I woke up it was 4 o’clock in the evening. I went to the kitchen, wash my face and start reading ‘The Healing Spell’ book. I only manage to read until chapter 9 then I close the book because the book was not as interesting as I thought it would be. My uncle sits on the couch and asked me “do you really don’t wanna go out and have a walk at least?”  I answered “why?”  then he say “you know, you didn’t go out of the house and play with your cousin since you came to visit us last Saturday and it has been a week. And I think you should go out and have some jog with your cousin.”  I sigh and answered “okay, I’ll do that.”  I put my sweater on and call my cousin next door. Before we go for a jog I help her with her math homework. Then we went for a jog from kampung Botung to kampung Piasau, it takes an hours to get there and an hours to go back. It was indeed a relaxing, fun and exhausting jog. We enjoy the jog and planned to have some jog tomorrow too, this time we’ll bring a lot of friends with us. It would be fun, I can’t wait.

SHOCKED :O

     Like I said before, I’m gonna spent my holiday in my village. So here I am now. Let me tell you a little bit about what had happen today. I was reading one of the story books that I borrowed at the library and I’ve been reading it since morning until now, in the evening. I can’t let my eyes get away from the book because the story was so interesting.

     When I was focusing on reading the book suddenly my uncle came and asked me “bibie, do you afraid of ghost?”Then I answered “no of course, they not real anyway, silly.”It was getting darker and I heard my grandma call me and told me to take a shower and get ready for dinner. So I did.

     A few minutes later when I was in the shower, I heard my uncle said “bibie do you take so long to take a shower?” I sigh and answered “no, don’t worry I’ll be ready in a second.”I wear my clean clothes and get out from the bathroom and when I open the door I was shocked because I saw a ghost! I jumped into my grandma shoulder, screamed and close my eyes tight because I can’t barely see the ghost face, it’s too scary. And that’s when I heard a bunch of laugher, I open my eyes and realize that it was not actually a real ghost; it was my uncle wearing a ghost mask. The whole people in the kitchen were laughing so hard at me and I felt totally embarrassed. I blushed. Then I said “it’s not funny, uncle. I can’t believe you put a prank on me. You are so naughty! Ugh.” My uncle answered “chill, it was only a joke. I thought you said you’re not scared of ghost.” Then they all laugh at me again. I don’t know what to answer so I joined them laugh because it was kinda funny remembering how my reaction was just now. I can’t believe I was a total chicken -.-

Holidays

Yeaayy ! Holidays . I felt extremely happy because we have a one week and 4 days holiday but I also felt sad because I miss my friends and I know my holiday will be bored like it always be. I do hope my holiday would be different this time with a whole lot of fun. Lately, I’ve been spending most of my time facebooking and tweeting and I can’t really remember when is the last time I study. The PAT exam is coming soon, and I felt exceedingly afraid because I just got a few weeks to study before the final exam and there’s so much to study. I need to study back all that I’ve already learn so that I can excel very well in the exam. I felt dreadfully of myself because I’ve been slothful and indolent these days. All I do is being on the internet for hours and wasting my time. So, I guess I really do need to study hard during this holiday to catch up my lessons. Anyway, I’m going to visit my grandparents for the rest of the holidays so I’ll be far away from the internet and I’ll use my time by doing useful thing and not to waste my time doing the not useful thing like I always does. I’ve decided that I will bring along my entire textbook and story book that I borrowed at the school library to my village and spent my holidays reading and doing exercise. I will also spend my time with my grandparents ‘cause it has been a while since I visited them the last two weeks ago and I really do miss them.

Gud Luck PMR candidates ! :)

The PMR exam is around the corner, and I would like to say good luck to all PMR candidates, all the best!

And since the PMR exam is around the corner, our school had held a banner competition. The rule is the banner must contain encouraging words and wish them luck. The design is up to the contestant.

Our class had participated in the competition. This is our banner:

I do hope we win the competition ‘cause our class never won the first place in all the banner competition before. It was disappointing. -.-

Yesterday was the last day to hang the banner at the side of the hallway but unfortunately our banner is in the counseling room because we sent it to teacher Mary and she’s not at the school that time, she went out for one week to see the sports at Dewan masyarakat like any other teacher. The counseling room was locked, teacher Mary and teacher Marcus were the one who hold the key and both of them were not at the school ! Ohh myy gawwdd -.- what a ruthful and lorn day. I can’t believe this is happening. :’((

Lanne

I've always want a horse :33

     I didn’t have a pet, but I would like to have one. I have always wanted a horse, especially the white one. Why? Because I want to ride it everywhere I want. It would be great! And every time I felt bored I will ride the horse to a spacious and commodious place and rest my mind. Oh I do hope I have a white horse, but I know my family can’t afford it. L Too bad. I hope and really hope I could own one, one day.  J Like miley cyrus, she have horse too. She have seven horse but one of her horse (Roam-Man) die one years ago. I’m sorry miley L

On My Mind - Cody Simpson :D

My favorite teacher :)

     My favorite teacher was my English teacher, we call her madam Jane. She is gorgeous at all the time. Her class was always the best. I could always understand what she’s teaching because she was always so clear in her explanations and teaching us extremely neat. She also inspired us a lot, she made every student feel special and she lead us to be a better person. 

     She is always giving us exercise more and more so that we’ll excel in our exam. I like that. I do well in my last exam and I forever thank her.  She knew a lot of stuff and she shared her knowledge and experience freely. That’s what I like about her. She is also firm sometimes with our homework and our exam grade. 

     She is also the one who teach us to be brave. When we were in form 1, we didn’t often volunteer our self to answer the teacher question because we were afraid if the answer was wrong. She sees that when we were in form 2 and told us to be brave to answer the teacher question and felt confident with the answer because even if the answer was wrong, she will correct it. She won’t be mad at us because she knows everyone made mistake. And that’s what we do in school, we learn and try to correct our mistake and not do it again. 

     I truly hope she will teach us English subject next year too because she’s very professional and the best.

Cupcakes :9

My Dearest friends

     I have a friend who likes to laugh a lot. Her name is Sylvilina, everyone call her Alean, well except for the principal. He call her *Pontianak* because the way she laugh is exactly the same as the Pontianak’s laugh. LOL. If something is even a little bit funny, she will laugh out loud and she doesn’t care who hears her. It doesn’t matter if she’s in a movie theatre, a classroom or just walking down the street. If it’s funny, she laughs. I think she should start a business where comedians pay her to come and sit at their shows. She’d make a fortune. Its fun to be around her, because she is always cheerful and you’ll never felt bored. She always knows how to make people around her laugh. That’s what I like about her.

Holidays suck sometimes -.-

I hate holidays -.- when it comes to holidays, I'll always have a boring one. I spent one whole week holidays doing nothing, well except for being on the Internet. 

Ugh, I rather go to school and do tons of homework than spending one whole week holidays doing NOTHING. 

What I hate the most is that I often fell ill during the holidays and didn't have enough energy to do like Everything, except for being on the Internet. ahaha ;DD 

But I LOVE weekends. especially the Friday night, I always spent Friday night watching movies with my Imaginary friend. LOL, just kidding! I watch the movie alone. haha 

nothing much ;]

  I felt extremely excited today. Guess what, I won the third place for the drawing books covers competition. Even thought I didn’t win the first place but at least I got a price. The price was a story book. The titles of the story book that I got are ‘Master Crook’s crime academy (burglary for beginners’) and ‘goddess girl Aprodite for beauty’. The story book is a scholastic book which is my favorites. Oh ya, our group also won the *Jejak Ilmu* competition. We won the second place. The price is a file, story books and a pen. My group members are Lisa, Joy and me myself. There’s only the three of us. Each of us got the same price but a different story books. Mine was the *Fairy School Dropout*.

  Next week is the PPP2 exam, oh god... I’m so afraid. I did study and I was studying now. I do hope I past the exam and got a better result. My dad said, if I got A’s in all subject except for the bahasa kadasan dusun he’ll give me his Acer laptop. He got two laptop. So, I HAVE to study hard to get that laptop! Ahaha. Today, I was supposed to be joining my friends for the Kelab Pencinta Alam camping until Sunday. But I thought if I join the camping I don’t have time to study. I’m having a hard time to choose whether I should join the camping or just stay home studying; I want to join the camping because that’s what I’ve been waiting for, like for ages. But I also want to stay home studying and get A’s in all subject for the exam and get the laptop. I felt extremely flustered now. (=.=’)

  I end up staying home and studying ‘cause for me the exam is more important than the camping. Lagipun there’s always next year bah… camping nanti-nanti pun boleh. Hehe J  btw, this week is the best week… well, I don’t exactly know why, it just did. Haha :D

Friday :]

  The PPP2 exam is nearer, so that’s mean I have to study, study and study. I’ve decided to prepare myself earlier this time and study every day, I mean study earlier. I would NOT study at the last minute again, ‘cause it’s no used. I won’t remember like the whole thing. I will also make a study group with my buddy’s at the library during the first or second recess but that’s ONLY if there is no obstacle. hopefully I was free during the recess so that I could go to the library. Let’s just pray. It’s not that I was really that busy, the thing is I’m the MPP . And the MPP was on duty to check the school during the RECESS! Oh Man! Well, we got our duty time table. If I was on duty to check on the canteen.. my oh my, I’m surely would be a lot busier =.=’ but If I was on duty to check the foyer the ABC or DEF block then I was free, It’s not that I was really FREE it just that I know how to skip doing those checking things in those places. HAHA. Shush up! Don’t tell anybody :-%  
[sory for my broken english :p]